Angels live among us

Writing soothes the feelings inside me

I know I am not highly talented when it comes to writing,

I never knew my texting hobby would turn into something new,

It grew up in me like the secret admirer,

nudging me all along,but never pushing me,

suprising me all along and it took few genuine hearts to bring it out from me,

my heart,my soul and my thoughts are deeply connected ,everytime my fingers work

and I am satisfied...



Monday, April 9, 2018

Lost and Found



I have been waiting in the dark all this while
Abandoned, lost and confused 
Fumbled into my fragile self
To rediscover my reckless soul 

Bashed and beaten up to the core
Anointed with the effervescent smile
A twisted trick that personified my existence 
Unravelling hidden mysteries of long forgotten desires

A notch up above all things real
I spread my wings to fly again
Soaring high to reach the promising stars
Blinded by the chains clinging to my legs

And I know I will wake up from my slumber soon, 
only to drift back into my surreal world,
a bedlam of distant dreams,
for the lunatic that thrives in hopes...

Saturday, June 24, 2017

discovery of dark self


A thought runs wild inside me, a burning desire to discover my self
I got inside the ever drifting mind. It was indeed a short journey.
Bits of memories scrapped out of my oozing soul
I took them all out and put them in the mason jar
Stored it away in the darkest corner of my self
Never to look back at it again, lest it hisses back at me
The fear of running away from crackling egg shells under my feet
That has undoubtedly remained my ever soothing companion
To the moon and the stars I might be singing a lullaby
Only the ocean can hear the cacophony of distress
That escapes a silent cry from my heart
No prayer to widen the halo of my shallow existence
No miracle to drop me off to heaven on hell
The carcass of mixed emotions carried away by the tides of arrogance
Not letting me learn from woes of self- deceptions
Drift away dear till you get drowned in natures galore

Float in the ocean till you melt into the soothing waves of hope…

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Dark love



There is a terrorist hiding inside you

The one that pokes its ugly head inside closed doors

Where you would rather kneel down out of fear

Than give in to the game of crossfires

Every step you take is on a broken shell

That could blast the very soul out of you

Ain’t it better to walk away my dear?

Than surrender to the dark love

That draws you back to that room 

Filled with memories of lost hopes

And lets you discover same old fears...

Friday, September 23, 2016

The moment…













I have known this day would come

Faster than the thoughts that engulfed my self

The moments that took me to the top of the world

And threw me off guard to the winds

To be swayed in my own little desires

Hidden under the disguise of reality

And made me re live the lost life

Restless and flustered was my little soul

That the story turned upside down

And made me look at it at a whole new perspective

Where was I, yeah, still hanging upside down

Now all alone where I started once

Ha-ha, now you know why it’s a story of wits

I was alone and always will be

That moment was all there to me

And impermanence is what convinced me in the end

To surrender my soul to the winds…

Saturday, April 2, 2016

BLUES: Grateful death

BLUES: Grateful death

Grateful death

I lie down looking at the barren sky
waiting for the shooting stars to flood the emptiness
that has painted black my evergreen sorrows
I saw past, flashing across melancholic present
whispering to my surreal self that lay still..
O’ child , you ain’t got a future
so stop drowning in your fantasies
lift yourself and jump off the cliff
and see for yourself the mystery that you once questioned
the heaviness that flows with you,  slowly feels light
the wings that will sprout from your fears
will lift you up to the heavenly skies
rays of hope will fall on your fading self..
it’s time my child to bid goodbye
to all sorrows and happiness
that were part of your forgotten dreams..
wake up and smell the grateful death
and drown yourself in heavenly glory.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Forbidden whispers

Pearls of love caressing my heart
Churning the sweet pain that tangled my soul
How I wish it could lift my chin
And end the suffering of night long lost

A faded memory of laughter slipped through my mind
Running amongst the lush fields of pansies
That waited long enough to be placed on my bare chest
A dream of forbidden beauty drifting in melancholic waves

Together they lifted my broken wings
Bejeweled them with thorns of agony
To take me higher to the land of glory
And drop me to eternal sands of darkness

Sunday, May 26, 2013

EMOTICONS

Time

Time that makes me scary
Time that makes me cry
Time that makes me sorry
That that makes me fiery

Fear

Fear that drives me
Fear that eats me
Fear that burns me
Fear that surmounts me

Craziness

Craziness in me
Craziness in you
Craziness in life around me
Craziness in all things pretty

Dreams

Dreams buried in me
Dreams that ripped my heart
Dreams that faded away
Dreams that outlived me

Sorrows

Sorrows of the world
Sorrows of the lives
Sorrows that shrunk us
Sorrows that strengthened us

Blasphemy

Blasphemy in 300
Blasphemy in Bible
Blasphemy in you
Blasphemy in me

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Questions


What is life all about???

The lies that we lived?
The lies that we are yet to see?
The lies that swept past us?
The lies that became a part of us?

What is inner peace all about???

The mystery that engulfed sweet sorrows?
The boon that we kept waiting for?
The serendipity of hopes?
The only belief that drove us?

What is love all about??

The sweet nothings that kissed us?
The pain that outlived us?
The only truth that filled up our senses?
The faith that kept us going?

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Stoning of Soraya M.




The tender bones of beautiful Soraya
that well fed the innocent stray dogs
never left the earth,got buried deep inside
to leave a mark,the mark of agony

People should hear her story
The story that burned many a women
Women of today,women of yesterday
Their innocence remained futile to the blind world

She was the shining messiah
The star that lit the dark streets
the voices of her delicate self
were trapped deep inside her wounds

her eyes were the graveyard of many men
who pelted her with stones
Her sons,her husband,her father,her brothers
The weak selfish soul of blind men

Her wrath could kill them all
but fate chose her
leaving her daughters in angel's hands
she let herself  be buried up to her waist

her head held high,her stare meant everything
she spoke her last words that fell into deaf ears
she wasn't afraid of death,but the pain she knew ,she can't escape
Neither did the signs help her

The plethora of stones that showered on her
killing her again and again that even her soul barely lived
she might have died on the unfortunate grounds
but her soul walked on heavenly clouds

The truth spilled later but her soul left before
But did it make any difference
Yes,to the world it did,it remained another heart burning story
while the innocent women kept burning in those hells forever..

Their voices had no meaning
Their prayers remained unanswered
Allah,show mercy on them
They are your true angels...



Friday, July 20, 2012

love still rules...

The heart that leapt high in to the dark blue skies
For what joy,she asked her withered soul
Fondness that made her go back
where the rear view mirror stood still

For she wanted to see reality
the truth that made her realize
that love had become her self,

Bitterness that  bit her heart
made her cold and crumbled her emotions

She brushed aside the feeling
that made her curl her lips
Her tears lost their track
It fell down on the mirror of hope
the life that blurred her vision
She knew it had to be
the way she wished her life to be
In love with her sober self
Words that made her believe
that love still survives
that love is the victory
that love is the success...

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Sneak Peak






I lay down sneering away my plaintive times
A fantasy that took me beyond the stars
Standing still at the zenith of my dream
A feeling of agony that missed the sneak peaks
Of dazzling eyes that captured my feeble heart
That sent shivers up and down my spine
A candid moment I craved each day
Where the eyes could lock in awe
A magic that can sing folklores for hours
The mystifying beauty that put me on the labyrinth
Rejoicing my soul for the love it mesmerised …

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Torn Ramblings...


Forget the symphony that shut your eyes
Broken dew that drank the melody
Of love life and all things mellow

Behold the love that lifted up your souls
Embrace the life that never let you down

The sons of vixens will come and go
With words of wisdom stuck up in their rear
Not their fault nor is it yours
It’s the fate that crunches your soul

Give up the hope that kills your passion
Wink at the evil that pulls you down
Spit at the sorrows that wrecks your heart

One life that’s all you got
Live it love it grip it and run for it!!!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

one life


Ain’t life a perfect chaos of mysteries?
A blooming dale of hopes
A ton full of wishes
A well crafted lie 
Gallons of love 
Sweet melodies that tune your soul
One life to live and one life to love
And the creature of all wisdom
Runs away from the beacon that
Lit the paths of many a fool...


                                                      

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Bizarre Love


What was she to him all these years?
     A relationship of convenience?
     A source of pleasure?
     A money vending machine?

When did love lose its meaning?
     When dreams turn into obsessive compulsions?
     When space and time turn into red signals?
     When sanity leaves the ruptured mind?

Was love the only reason she found to stay?
     Was it only him she wanted to give herself to?
     Was her soul so vain it always went to rejection zones?
     Was love a weapon to destroy traumatized souls?

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

guilty sojourn


My life was not meant to be thrown into shackles of wrath
It's not something so demeaning for men to step on it
And grind it till it leaves no trail of ashes of shame
Yes,to err is human,I know that and so do you
But It never gave you the license to put me at gun point

Guilt is not a passer by my friend nor is it a phase
It's the fishing hook with no bait but only its pointy end
that gets stuck for eternity inside your cheek
Which drags you to hell where your yell gets
sucked up by vacuum and your pleas remain unheard

An empty downtrodden life of a young fool in love
Who kept loving him for she was drowned in his memories
Memories which made her tears into droplets of fire
A sojourn that had to end before it reached its destination
A dream which failed to be fulfiled for hope stood no chance

Sunday, January 8, 2012

heart made of coal

I see him down the aisle
all happy with sparkling teeth
that lit the way for my shoes
that lost its way on his noose
I stand there staring at him
a mark that held me away from all
I could see myself running away
to the wild wild shores
that fooled me to the core
to end up in a woe
crying in cross roads
that told me life's silliest cues
that men have a heart,
heart made of gold
that gets broken into coal
that always turned sore
when you melt into their souls
had a life before
that taught me quite a chore
mind playing hotchpotch
made me swim in its lore
ripples of melodies dripping in my soul
I came back to where I started my goal
A sojourn in a hole...





Friday, January 6, 2012

the two l's


lust and love , the l's of felony
that can make the mourning soul
go haywire in its search for sanctity
brushed aside the dearth of glory
to run with the best of vices
a song of pity to crush its wits
sigh ... and the soul gets lost
in the rubble of ecstasy
drinking away the myths of fear...


Thursday, December 29, 2011

scuttle lives

trust your heart,at least for a change,

the change that swept me away for years on end,


that made me believe that life was scuttle,

the winds that breathed life into me,

and sucked away all hopes and dreams,

the one whom I loved,the one who was a part of me,

the one I always cared about,the one who always made me smile,

the  life cycle ends and may be it begins again,

so should I be on top of the world,screaming out my heart,

for the one who held me in his arms,holding me close forever,

never letting me go,you got to be strong,that's the message send across,

strength that lost its sheen,the rocks that floats on oceans,

mending my sorrows with more lies,it sucks,life does suck,

a smile that makes others happy,no ones at loss,

and then it whispers into my ears,why???why do you still weep,

the cries that made me go mad,

i woke up from the nightmare,

to realise that I stepped myself in to more dreary ones...

Saturday, August 27, 2011

dark souls...


I went down my knees
now all bruised and scarred
I know I was too late to step in
he left without saying a word
he loves me ,he loves me not
its a question that wrecked my whole life
I am not a saint nor am I a sinner
I sold my soul to the devil
Yes I am evil
I am not sane or pure
I played with his heart and forgot
all about his love
sorry seems to be the last word
that never escaped my mouth
I deserve a rotten hell
burning down with the flames
the last supper that made me realise
that trust has lost its meaning
my life isnt meant to be lived
I have to let go of my soul
that struggles to leave my body
I am lost and helpless
Tears rolled down my face all ripped
I am hate and I love being hated....