Lost and Found

I have been waiting in the dark all this while

Abandoned, lost and confused 

Fumbled into my fragile self

To rediscover my reckless soul 

Bashed and beaten up to the core

Anointed with the effervescent smile

A twisted trick that personified my existence 

Unravelling hidden mysteries of long forgotten desires

A notch up above all things real

I spread my wings to fly again

Soaring high to reach the promising stars

Blinded by the chains clinging to my legs

And I know I will wake up from my slumber soon, 

only to drift back into my surreal world,

a bedlam of distant dreams,

for the lunatic that thrives in hopes...

discovery of dark self

A thought runs wild inside me, a burning desire to discover my self

I got inside the ever drifting mind. It was indeed a short journey.

Bits of memories scrapped out of my oozing soul

I took them all out and put them in the mason jar

Stored it away in the darkest corner of my self

Never to look back at it again, lest it hisses back at me

The fear of running away from crackling egg shells under my feet

That has undoubtedly remained my ever soothing companion

To the moon and the stars I might be singing a lullaby

Only the ocean can hear the cacophony of distress

That escapes a silent cry from my heart

No prayer to widen the halo of my shallow existence

No miracle to drop me off to heaven on hell

The carcass of mixed emotions carried away by the tides of arrogance

Not letting me learn from woes of self- deceptions

Drift away dear till you get drowned in natures galore

Float in the ocean till you melt into the soothing waves of hope…

Dark love

There is a terrorist hiding inside you

The one that pokes its ugly head inside closed doors

Where you would rather kneel down out of fear

Than give in to the game of crossfires

Every step you take is on a broken shell

That could blast the very soul out of you

Ain’t it better to walk away my dear?

Than surrender to the dark love

That draws you back to that room 

Filled with memories of lost hopes

And lets you discover same old fears...

The moment…

I have known this day would come

Faster than the thoughts that engulfed my self

The moments that took me to the top of the world

And threw me off guard to the winds

To be swayed in my own little desires

Hidden under the disguise of reality

And made me re live the lost life

Restless and flustered was my little soul

That the story turned upside down

And made me look at it at a whole new perspective

Where was I, yeah, still hanging upside down

Now all alone where I started once

Ha-ha, now you know why it’s a story of wits

I was alone and always will be

That moment was all there to me

And impermanence is what convinced me in the end

To surrender my soul to the winds…

BLUES: Grateful death

BLUES: Grateful death

Grateful death

I lie down looking at the barren sky
waiting for the shooting stars to flood the emptiness
that has painted black my evergreen sorrows
I saw past, flashing across melancholic present
whispering to my surreal self that lay still..
O’ child , you ain’t got a future
so stop drowning in your fantasies
lift yourself and jump off the cliff
and see for yourself the mystery that you once questioned
the heaviness that flows with you,  slowly feels light
the wings that will sprout from your fears
will lift you up to the heavenly skies
rays of hope will fall on your fading self..
it’s time my child to bid goodbye
to all sorrows and happiness
that were part of your forgotten dreams..
wake up and smell the grateful death
and drown yourself in heavenly glory.

Forbidden whispers

Pearls of love caressing my heart

Churning the sweet pain that tangled my soul

How I wish it could lift my chin

And end the suffering of night long lost

A faded memory of laughter slipped through my mind

Running amongst the lush fields of pansies

That waited long enough to be placed on my bare chest

A dream of forbidden beauty drifting in melancholic waves

Together they lifted my broken wings

Bejeweled them with thorns of agony

To take me higher to the land of glory

And drop me to eternal sands of darkness